A wonderful diwali to everyone in advance as most likely things will get so haywire and busy that I won't find the time to write. Planning to have a wonderful diwali and all other upcoming festivals. Want to make the celebrations a remembrance for them...leave them with very very happy memories. Am planning on telling Gaurav soon perhaps in January...I don't want him to hold it against me forever that I never told him...but am not sure as of yet 'cos I don't think I will be able to bear the fact that he wudn't care...so maybe I will not tell him. Am not sure...nothing much to write today...feel like picking a fight with him today so just avoiding talking to him too much as it would be pointless. I don't have the strentgh to bear to listen to any more hurtful things from him. Its not possible to forget what all he said earlier itself much less add to that baggage no. As it is feeling very much under the weather today. Feeling very sick today...